seronok !

wah ! xsaba tngu sabtu ni, nk p tgk lagenda budak setan ngn adk.. dok aim cta ni lama da.. bla mnx permission kt mama nk kuaq, mama bg.. SERONOK !

then nnti nk p keja ngn adk, cant wait ! ;D

3 ari !

1 word ! SERONOK ! abah swuh aku jga kdai kt cmputer fair, xpe la.. then aku ajk adk tman.. bez ! suka2 ! njoy gla p sna. suka hati nk p kul bpa n ska ati nk blek kul bpa.. bub kdai 2 pak aku pnya.. haha, da la kt gurun. jao ! bez ! then g pusing2 shoping cmplex ngn adk..

da 1 tme 2 xcident ! wah, kami 2 kiok gla ! huhu

ari sabtu lak, mama ckp la, xpya anta mira blek, bwk blek uma bub da mlm. ksimpulan dya adk tdo uma ! bez ! hahaha

nnti abah nk swuh jaga lg.. ohh,m x sbar bub ley ajk adk be4 aku p sarawak.. ;D

lawak !

td da kenduri kt uma maklong.. xpe la.. then msa nk blek 2.. tetba achik, paksu, maklang, paklang, acu, pakchik, maklong ckp bnda ni !

blek ni jgn bwk keta laju2 tw ! n paling pnting p sarawak nnti,

jgn bwk blek owg sarawak ! kami xmw bub nnti susa nk ulang2 p knduri kt sna..

hahahaha ! sumpa aku gelak, pkir style jao gla.. aku akn cari owg semenanjung la ! no wory ? anyone ? volunteer ? hahaha ! ;D

btw, i miss u ! asa sunyi idup bub xdk owg kcaw.. tp, xpe la.. ;D

fauzan !

haha.. semlm tga2 msj ngn azri, tetba msok incoming call.. jan ! aku angkt la.. sumpa jan gla ! haha, mrpek pa ntah nk msok mnang la pa la.. haha, yg azri pnya la tngu aku rply msj.. lwak gla jan 2.. mamai ka pa tetba tpon aku ! hahaha.. ;D

ngek !

haish, gelong ! terasa dowh ! haha.. aku da la rndu nk mati kt adk.. tetba dya tpon

adk : kakak wtpa ?

aku : tngu adk la!!

adk : ala, kciannya, sory.. tp ari ni adk bz la kak..

aku : emm.. xpa ahh..

adk : ha, adk soei sgt2, tp adk nk kna p surau ni..

aku : emm..p la.. *sora kecewa gla !*

adk : btol ni kak xmrh adk ? jgn terasa ngn adk tw ?

aku : ha, xpon.. *even terasa gla*

adk : kak shat ?

aku : x, demam !
adk : laa, npa demam ? trok ke ?

aku :x, besa ja.

adk : slaen 2, kak pning pala x ?

aku : x, sket tkak ja..

adk : ok, jp g kak jgn lpa mkn ubt tw.

aku : ha, ok2..

adk : k kak jp lg tngu adk cntct kak blek tw..

aku : k bek.. * tga kcwa sgt2*

haha ! ngok ! cm xdk sbb kn nk terasa ? tp biaq ahh ! kalot ! idup aku, bkn ampa. haha

trust me

semlm, when i msj u.. it's mean dat i remember u ok ! n when i ask u dat cepumas ques, i really2 want 2 know the answer cause i thought u didnt love me anymore ! well, i guee i was wrong.. u said u still love me no matter what happen ! guess what ? i feell so so so hapy ! n when i say that ur wondering if i love u or not.. then answer is YES ! i stil love you ! trust me.. i love both of u only ! no matter wat happen, ily ! trust me dear ! ;D

abah !

haha.. tga2 tgk tb. abah ckp

abah : btol nk p sarawak ni..

aku : yeala ! npa x cya ka ?

abah : agk la, da la dri sndri pon x teurus lg..

aku : no wory bebeh, angah ley survive pnya la.. hahaha

abah : ha, bf dpt mna ?

aku : omg ! *tekejut* ha, mna da bf la abah..

abah : btol xdk ?

aku : yes bebeh, xmaen la bf2 ni, semak otak ja.. stdy dlu kn ok..

abah : la, lw da bf bwu nk p knai..

aku : abah ni psai pa ? buang tabiat ?

abah : sja ja.. hahaha!

abah x btoi hahaha !

kebahagian dalam perpisahan!

wahh ! sumpa suka2 ! suka2 ! sgt2 suka laa !

tak perlu ucapkan sepatah kata

kerna lantang terpancar dari muka

kau dan aku suda tiada

kerasian di jiwa

mungkin magisnya sudah hilang

tak perlulah kita mencuba lagi

betulkan kesilapan perhubungan ini

bila setiap perbincangan

menjadi perbalahan

manalah agaknya cinta pasti

embun pun takkan mampu

menyubur sekuntum

bunga yang layu pada musim luruh

yang dulunya mekar di sinar suria

bila sudah kering pasti akan gugur

seperti cinta kita yang jelas ternyata

semakin lama oh semakin rekah

menimbulkan tanya apa mungkin kita

temu kebahagian dalam perpisahan

usah titis air mata kau tangiskan

ku dah cukup menampung selautan

begitu lama ku pendam

tapi hanya berdiam

kerna cuba menafi realiti

bwt trok !

haha, dok wt trok pa weh ? jebon ! aku da line clear hg plak wt trok2.. ngek ! hahaha.. ape da.. aku la, asa cm nk sepak terajang ja.. haish ! cm pundek lg ! haha, ni mla nk kuarkn ayt2 x ptot da ni.. dok gebang kt smua owg aku wt trok pa, ang ingt apa aku wt ni ada kaitan ngn hg ka ? mmpos ah ! haha, xdk kaitan lgsg.. hg ja dok bjet n pasan lbey, cm aku ckp, dok wt trok ja.. ingt hbat da la ? opps ! lpa, hg mmg hbat pon, aku ja x hebat cm hg. haha.. hg kn SEMPURNA ! 2 rmai owg tegla2 kt hg 2.. hahahaha ! ngek ! mnusia2 ! aku da xpeduli da la.. tlg jgn wt cm aku amek peduli.. adoiyai ! ;D

sarawak !!

weh ! tngu ja aku p gegarkn SARAWAK !! wahh, haha.. jao2 la yg amt sgt2 jao.. gla.. xpa2.. mcm mama ckp.. 3 taon ja pon.. sat ja.. 4 bulan stdy, 2 bln cuti.. pejam celik pejam celik.. da ok hbs dip da.. xpa, smua ni demi mama !

bila nk jmpa adk ni ! nk gtw aku dpt sarawak, ooh ! xley byang ! sgt2 sdey bub nk kna tngai dya utk 3 taon *ngada* cm xley jmpk.. haha.. xpa2.. pape pon aku syg dya, dya syg aku.. ;D

td wt luahan jiwa kt sopea, wah ! lega gla.. sopea ja tw sejarah idup aku n kisah hdup aku ! haha, sopea.. aku syg hg weh ! thnx ! skng aku asa lapang da.. ;D

hahaha !

gla ! tkjut aku bla fiqah cta sal cg xxxxx.. ada po dya tnya fiqah

cg : farhana ngn mira taha da pa2 ka ?

fiqah : awt cg ?

cg : xda la, dpa rapat ja..

fiqah : k.pana mmg rpat ngn k.mira pon.. awt ? cg ingt dpa les ka ? *smbl gelak*

cg : mna nk tw..

fiqah : xla, dpa mmg rpat..

ape ka siot nya cg 2.. otak tekatop gla gabai.. ngn owg laen bla aku rpat dya xkta pa lak.. bla aku rpat ngn mira dya kta cm 2.. gelong bngang tol.. ingt aku ni gla ? xdk iman ? nk jd les ? ingt mak pak aku x ajq aku agama ka ? ingt aku daif sgt ? bodo sgt ? gla bngong toi ! wakaka ! sket jiwa aku sbb dok gelak..

adk !

pfft ! semlm adk tpon, ckp jap ja bub gna public, then dya swuh aku tpon no hanum, xpe la.. tetba tga2 ckp dya ckp kt aku

adk : kak, kak da gtw cuki pa adk swuh gtw 2 ?

aku : ha ? gtw pa syg ?

adk : psl xxx 2 ?

aku : ha, kak gtw da..

adk : then dya kta pa ?

aku : dya kta dya mmg x cntct pon ngn xxx..

adk : ha kak ! adk nk gtw ni ! *jerit*

aku : ye syg ? apa ?

adk : adk x bg kakak kpel ngn owg laen slain dr cuki ! jgn pena kpel ngn owg laen, lw kpel ngn owg laen kak mmg xsyg adk.. n kak gtw kt cuki, yg adk xbg dya kpel slaen kak .. pham ?

aku : Haaaaa?

adk : apa haaa? syg adk x ?

aku : syg la, tp ni lbatkn prsaan la adk oi !
adk : xdk ahh, lw kak syg adk kak kna wt..

aku : ok bek la2 !

gila ! haha, adk mmg gelong ! ada ptot, tp xpe la.. anythng 4 her.. cta bnda ni kt cuki semlm tme wt ss

aku : cuki nk tw somethng ?

cuki : ye ? apa dya ?

aku : *gtw pa adk swuh ckp*

cuki : wah ? adk gelong ka ? *gelak*

aku : ha, tw xpa.. ntah pa2..

cuki : then fana ckp pa ? *sora serious*

aku : ha. errr.. *gagap*

cuki : ha ! pa dya ?

aku : hehhehehe..

cuki : xnk gtw la 2..

aku : cm cuki ckp kn, lw jdoh xkemna kn?

cuki : ha, pndai pon !

wahh ! haha, cuki mmg memahami ! syg cuki la ! pape pon.. yg lwak nya tme ni la..

aku : cuki tga wtpa ni ?

cuki : tga cat uma la syg

aku : ha? xpe la, cat la dlu..

cuki : xpe2, nk hbs da.. fana asa wana pa lwa utk cat ?

aku : bg fana wana ijau lawa gak !
cuki : ha, otak kta mmg sma la syg..

aku : hehe, besa ah.. sehati sejiwa..

cuki : ha, tw pon ! ada wana pa2 lg ?

aku : wana biru oren lwa ! fana suka ?

cuki : xpa, nnti kta cat blik kta wana 2 k ?

aku : huh *tekejut* btol ka ?

cuki : ye syg !

aku : wah ! suka2./.

cuki : tp xnk la, cuki nk cat wana pink ijau..

aku : ha? mna msok ! allaaaa!

cuki : haha, xtw la.. tp cuki nk wana 2..

aku : ha, skng cni.. nnti lm blik, kta cat 1 wana ijau, sblah dnding oren, 1 lg biru n 1 lg pink ? ok?

cuki : wah, nnti pening kta dok blik 2.. huhu

aku : bwu la adil..

cuki : xpe la syg, cuki bealah, nnti kta cat wana biru oren K ?

aku : yes ! setuju sngat !!

ksimpulan dya, makin hari kami dok ckp sal msa dpn.. haish ! haha, takot nya.. harapan adk nk tecapai da kot syg ? haha, kak beserah dik ! ;D

bwk keta ?

haha, aku lw naek keta, lupa dunia ! yeala, keja nk tkan mnyak ja.. bkn nk riak la ok ! =.=" tp owg kta kau bwk laju, bg aku, x la laju sgt.. huhu.. lw laju 2 cm jan bwk, gla hantu ! huhuhu..

haa, boring2 !

muncul kembali ?

alkisah cta ni mula bla aku tga bwk keta dlm keadaan bebai.. tetba msj msok

xxx: salam.. ni farhanakn?

aku : pa?

xxx : farhana ke ?

aku : so ?

xxx : garangnya, knai owg lg x ?

aku : spa ?

xxx : xxx, yg pena kapel dlu

aku : huh ? ohh, knal2

xxx : tga wtpa ? npa cm mrh ja

aku : tga bwk keta, yup.. tga bebai la..

xxx : npa ? gado ngn balak ka ?

aku : * pa jadah balak !* mna da blak, bebai besa ja

xxx : npa xdk balak ?

aku : *bnyk tnya aih * emm.. sbb xdk nk wt cna..

xxx : npa x cari ?

aku : ikut suka la..

xxx : emm. lw owg nk kpel blek bley ??

aku : huh ? kapel balek ? ha, xpa la.. xmw la..

xxx : npa ?? sbb dh da blak ??

aku : hello ! owg kta xdk kn ? gpon mls r.. sepak pala otak ja ! syukur ja ngn pa da skng..

xxx : kra da xley trma owg da ?

aku : bleh .

xxx : btol ni?

aku : sbgai kwn ja..

xxx : la, xpa la..

aku : ok !

kesimpulan dya, gla pa.. da 2 taon x cntct tetba hidup blek then nk kpel.. the answer is a BIG NO !

2 jam !

2 jam besama beliau ! sya suka sgtt ! kul 4 p pkok sena, lpak uma adk.. tlg dya iron bju, lipat baju n kemas beg dya.. gelak2, menyanyi, merajok, tarek muka, ktok pala, dya lmpat ats aku.. name it ! mcm2 kmi buat.. then kul 5.30 kuaq la uma, p kdai PENG kt sg2 haha ! bli la brg dya nk blek ostel, tetba dya tarek tngn aku ajk p beli pen. mcm bdk2 ! huu, then dya tlis nma kau kt ketas 2, betuah tol.. then kami bli la pen sma, dya kta bwu bez ! aku snyum ja, then p la lntas jln bli goreng pisang, tme lntas jln 2 adk pluk kuat tngn aku sbb dya tkot lntas jln. haha, adoiyai, mmg bdk2 tol adk.. msok2 keta, dya jerit, ingt npa la.. tgk2 dya kta sja ja.. mmg kna luku pala la..

pape pon ! bezz ! i love her ! ;D

gla ank haram !

babee la ! dua ari da aku dok mncarut .. ank babee btoi.. kmbeng la !! tlg la jgn wt aku mncarut setan oii ! n dont make me hate you, cause when i do.. u will totally refert it ! damnn ! celaka !! =.=!!

4 pagi !

kamjat ! xley nk tido lg ! babee btoi ! aku da la tga panas dlm ngn luaq ni.. wah ! td p rempit ngn pedai n breakfast ngn pedai ! bez2 ! huhuhu.. thnx pedai ! aku syg hg ! wahh ! tnsion gla..

p/s : lw tnsion dga lagu ni ! bezz ! sukaa ! ;D

I tear my heart open,

I sew myself shut

My weakness is that

I care too much

My scars remind me that the past is real

I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down

And I just wanna be alone

I'm pissed 'cause you came around

Why don't you just go home

Cause you channel all your pain

And I can't help you fix yourself

Your making me insane

All I can say is

I tear my heart open,

I sew myself shut

My weakness is that

I care too much and

Our scars remind us that the past is real

I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once

Against my own advise

I saw you going down

But you never realized

That your drowning in the water

So I offered you my hand

Compassion's in my nature

Tonight is our last stand

I tear my heart open,

I sew myself shut

My weakness is that I care too much and

Our scars remind us that the past is real

I tear my heart open just to feel I'm drunk and

I'm feeling down

And I just wanna be alone

You shouldn't ever came around

Why don't you just go home?

Cause your drowning in the water

And I tried to grab your hand

And I left my heart open

But you didn't understand

[But you didn't understand]

Go fix yourself I can't help you fix yourself

But at least I can say I tried I'm sorry but

I gotta move on with my own life

I can't help you fix yourself

But at least I can say I tried

I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

I tear my heart open,

I sew myself shut

My weakness is that I care too much and

Our scars remind us that the past is real

I tear my heart open just to feel

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut

My weakness is that I care too much and

Our scars remind us that the past is realI tear my heart open just to feel

only one !

wahh ! cnta mati idup xbngon blek ! haha, pa jadah mrpek.. pape pon lagu ni lma da dgr, tp bwu skng jth cnta thap kmbeng ! wahh ! siot gla la.. suka2 !

Broken this fragile thing now

And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces

And I've thrown my words all around

But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)

And I give up (I give up)

I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you

You are my only oneI let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do

You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down

And I can't, I can't hold on for too long

Ran my whole life in the ground

And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)

I feel like giving up (like giving up)

I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you

You are my only one

I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do

You are my only my only one

Here I go so dishonestly

Leave a note for you my only one

And I know you can see right through me

So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you

You are my only oneI

let go, there's just no one, no one like you

You are my only, my only one

My only one

My only one

My only one

You are my only, my only one

p/s : tetba teingt da some1 pena antr lrik lagu ni kt aku.. ;D

menangis !

pfft ! ok, pngakuan ! semlm aku ngis ! pkul 3 pg, smua sbb CUKI !! uhh ! bngon2 td bngkak mta.. i need 2 see him 2 setle all of dis nonsense n i aso must see her 2 setle all of dis nonsense ! wahh ! gla deh, semlm kul 2 smpai 3 pg nges, siot tol.. bodo ! asl cengeng sgt ! ngek tol la aku ni ! ntah pape.. pehh ! pape pon.. tngu la sbtu ni.. evrythng will be stel ! =.="

hapy bfday syg !

wahh ! syg, hapy bfday ! adk da tua da.. tp 4 me, adk ttp my little sis.. huhu.. i love u la syg.. arap adk suka adiah kak 2.. huhuhu.. ;D